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Friday, December 16, 2011

An Ode to my Teachers


For being the teacher who not only taught me what he knew,
but taught me how to grow,

 THANK YOU.

For being the teacher who restored and rebuilt,
a confidence all shattered and scattered,

THANK YOU.

For being the teacher who took away the fear of exploring possibilities,
and looking beyond the usual, safe vision,

THANK YOU.

For being the teacher who encouraged a curiosity,
that had learnt to be afraid and silent,

THANK YOU.

For being the teacher who would push us to find our own path,
not lead us down a road he knew,

THANK YOU.

Dedicated to the best teachers I've ever got, Kamran Sahab, Rafi Ahmed and my most favourite and supportive guiding force, Miss Sheba.

And this bit is especially for you Miss Sheba.


For being the teacher who taught me to see between the grays,
to have the strength to separate the white and black,
and stand by it,

THANK YOU!


Sunday, September 4, 2011

One skew!...and you're skewered!

Friday, August 26, 2011

words and time

Some combinations of words and timing are just horrible, they can mean no good, if they are the most honest truth, and said with the intention of avoiding tension. If the time just differs by seconds, the disaster being avoided in the first place, blows out of proportions and lasts much longer than that disaster which was being avoided.


Sigh.
Yes it happens, to the best and the worst of us. Whether the best happens to the worst or the worst to the best?, that question still remains unanswered. Still much to find out.

Funny to think what the difference is, between the phrases best disaster and worst disaster?

Going back to what led to this entry, an honest truth which I would actually like to tell this person sometime, reached them, from my mouth, in the wrong tone, at the worst possible time. I was saying it to someone else, and they heard.

Things that happen when one hears what is meant for them, but being said to another....OH man!....

Lesson?

Be careful when saying something you want to tell someone (to somebody else)....cause you'll definitely not say it in the same tone to their face...

Something = criticism....

Sunday, August 21, 2011

try not to find what u have in one relationship, in another...its unhappy

Saturday, July 23, 2011

there is an intoxication to anonymity that only the infamous understand

Friday, July 1, 2011

Need

Today..
She finally died. After each and every previous death of hers. She finally gasped her last. She had to;but this death was different, different from all her previous deaths..

Earlier, she had died of starvation, she had faded away in the scorching sun of life, she had disappeared for lack of colour, she had slept for lack of strength, she was forgotten for lack of time, she had weakened and weakened, become a distant memory, a sidelined past...

And so
Dead!

But her death today was not caused for ignorance.Today, she had been murdered.

Conscientiously...
Like every weakness should be;like everything that weakens ones constitution should be. Need - noun and verb;and needing - word and sentence;had to be killed. Killed by that which she needed, that which she caused;her solace, her revenge, her solitary tears...

Solitary; not lonely, tears..

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Architecture for the public?



At its most basic, Architecture is a definition of space - i.e. a space defined for a specific or variable function. To an average Pakistani, this is where architecture begins and also where it ends. The perception of house has not developed beyond the idea of a shelter, and purpose built buildings have yet to find their way into the minds of our people. Hence, architecture prevails as a highly elitist profession, service and concept; the awareness of which, is also restricted to elitist circles.

The afore mentioned example of a house, holds true for all architecture. The vaguest perception of a public building to a lay mind is still a mosque and probably extends a bit to a hospital; apart from this, that also is very a superficially developed concept of a shelter. The reason for this (for the lay man that is) might lie in Islamic history and teachings, which solicited simple lifestyles and did not advocate extravagant structures and luxurious spaces. From another point of view though, all this wasn’t prohibited either.

Excluding this possible but vague religious factor, there are many easily understood socio-economic, historic and cultural factors leading to this. Let us examine some of them as follows. Being a poverty stricken country with borrowed high ideals and goals, the most major aim in even a higher middle class Pakistanis life is to make ends meet. A home is definitely one of the primary priorities on the agenda, but it easily and most frequently slips to secondary status – such is the mental state of an average Pakistani. Let us examine the approach of one, through an example.

If a lay man is asked what he wants for an office space, his response is likely to be very simple; i.e. just rooms, large enough to accommodate two or more people with their respective furniture. Although he might know well the cosmetic treatment of the space, for instance, the carpet, the upholstery etc; this person will barely understand the needs for circulation, inter-personal interaction, efficient space utilization – especially for mechanized functions e.g. photocopier, micro-climate control and an environment conducive to maximum productivity. Thus displaying, a lack of awareness of the “power” of architecture.

As we study this example further, the client in question is of the opinion that the workforce can adjust themselves to the workplace. It is this attitude, as a result of which we see cases like the Karachi Passport Office housed in old barracks, causing the staff and public a lot of inconvenience.



Nevertheless, if an average businessman in the downtowns of a city in Pakistan is asked for his requirements for a shopping plaza, he is most likely to list shops, shops and more shops; storey upon storey. Again, he will also know in-depth about the required “cosmetic” treatment, e.g. glass facades, brightly lit display windows/ panels, dream-like capsule elevators, impractical air-conditioning and possible power backup.

In this case also, the supposed client does not spare even a thought to other important agenda such as, parking space, natural lighting and ventilation, customer and staff comfort, effective circulation, solid/void balance and the energy efficiency of the building.

An assessment of this example highlights ruthless capitalism, and the perception of a mall being a  temporary  space for customers; where the staff is expected to  adjust for the sake of livelihood. A physical representative of this The Rabi Centre; over crowded, congested and suffocating, yet frequented for its attractive wares. This also represents customers’ mentality – voiced as an interest in wares, not giving any importance to the environs of such.

These attitudes, sadly, infiltrate clients that require complex institutional functions            , such as hospitals and schools. They may understand the needs for clear uninhibited circulation, and services in relation to the function; but most will still be adamant upon covering each square foot in construction, regardless of how constructive it is in purpose.

This approach results in severe hierarchical problems, especially in terms of traffic. Zonal organization, transition areas and noise levels within and outside the building are also not given a thought to; resulting in spaces such as an Operation Theater adjoining an almost public space as a General Ward. Or, pertaining to a school, the library being next to a noisy playground or Kindergarten! I have even come across a library that houses a music room! Hence, disrupting traffic efficiency in case of an emergency or just causing disturbance in terms of noise.

Some hospitals are such that a healthy person starts feeling ill upon entering them. So are some schools, they completely defy their purpose, making the students just want to run away; the curiosity of even the young students’ impressionable minds is not aroused.

Most hospitals do not take into account the need for environments to accelerate the recovery process; how much does it take to incorporate a small interactive space with board games or a mini library? Not much. Yet, we are not inclined to do it. Similarly, in schools, the need for supplements to the learning process – through books – is not understood. Auditoriums, art display spaces, libraries, playgrounds, even small garden spaces – to have lunch maybe – are not encouraged. Even the simplest things, such as creating seating directly under a tree are not considered.

Very few hospitals show signs of developing waiting areas, making visiting and nursing a repulsive experience. This holds true for schools also; where it can become excruciating for children to wait for their transport.

The thought process behind such avoidable blunders remains the same; maximum utilization of space to make room for provision of services - which is a good thing - , but done with a lack of sensitivity towards the users.

These buildings, though public, are insensitive to not only its users, but also to the environment, context and social needs. These buildings do not address universal accessibility. Does that imply that a child with polio cannot attend a regular school? Yes. Most malls, parks, museums do not have bathrooms. They do not even have dustbins! Let alone bathrooms; and transition spaces – staircases, corridors - are the least thought about or designed. These buildings lack character, i.e. they can be used to serve almost any other function, with little or no alteration.











Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Disappointment

 
This was all she was left with, all that she had become herself. Borne of so-called unconditional love and sacrifice, and both having expectations from her. Her eyes wept and wept yet all her hearts tears couldn't flow out her eyes, couldn't wash the indelible scars her wounds had left. Hurting and ever-fresh, yet scars. She broke and shattered bit by bit inside but love and sacrifice never noticed, and accused her of exploitation and opportunism; blamed her of having hurt them. She gave her all and she gave her best but they expected from her to support one and she couldn't; though she tried. She could live without both but not support one against the other. They fought in front of her; they fought through her, always injured her in the process and screamed it was love and sacrifice. Such lies. Such blatant lies. Myths of love and sacrifice. Then they accused her of enjoying the dispute and gaining of it. Leaving her as always, disappointed; with both, love and sacrifice.

Friday, February 11, 2011

STANDARDIZATION - by way of harmony

Corbusier finds harmony present in nature, machines, and the Classic examples of the Sistine Chapel and Erechtheum, but not in the architecture around him, which he feels is just hanging on to applied ornament to justify itself as art. He feels harmony is a product of economy and requirement, contemporary technology and a sense of zeitgeist.

He disregards respect for convention completely, in favour of respect for nature.

"A world organised according to a new spirit" - a clear reason why Modernism is also referred to as "International Style". The attempt to encompass the whole world made Modernism want to introduce a homogeneity; resulting from STANDARDIZATION - the characteristic which was to serve as an identity for Modernism. Nonetheless, at the same time, this unifying of identities meant, depriving many of identities, which they took pride in and which they carried on, as progression of their culture. 


Though Modernist ideas of this architecture being generic/homogenous - i.e. by way of NOT being elitist and not affecting en masse - had its own social concerns and attempted to provide a sense of equality amongst all; its intensity also deprived many of what they may most identify with - memories and tradition; as well as a comfort, a satisfaction that is derived from the act of organising the disorganised in ones own way. Standardization therefore, reduced an individuals radius of power and moreover the exercise of it.

In conclusion, Modernisms great social agenda to unite many under the same architecture language added a pinch of tyranny to an otherwise much wanted ingredient of equality in society. A harmony so intense, so standard, so imposed, that it became difficult to accept; and hence, despite having a positive intention, got a negative response.